Honestly, I felt the world is turned to whirl in the blindness. My eyes are open, but not difference from close. Oh my God! I am not yet prepare to be the mother (but I don’t mean I don’t want to be a mother). And I don’t know what should I prepare? What should I do at the first step and next step? Oh no… no… What is the quick changing in my health, my body and my life? I started change my daily food and time for eating. And I am scared. Yes, I am scare for everything. I am scare people around me will be careless and effects to my baby? I am scared the traffic will be harmful to us? I am scared all the people around me will be make any accident while I am shopping? Ghost, so scared all the time I am alone, oh, no… What the terrible scaring? I am really hard in moving and everything seem slow, it is not faster as I want. I was transform from skinny to obesity and dark skin. I was very terrible with dizzy. Dizzy very often, I look at myself so weak. I ask myself, this is me? Vomit is what I can’t avoid. I’m not shy to rush out of many people to the toilet. I had never pee much before, but I did lots during pregnancy period. Hm… Of cause, this is me. I am changed many things and I told myself; this is because I am pregnant.

Become the pregnancy woman there are lots of things happened. This is the gift of life. It is very incredible to create another life in your body. And this is very excited like the magical to growth the little life with you in nine months and ten days. All the thing happens on you is strange. It is out of expected think. Those things can be explain to another woman but hard to make them feel as you get because only you can feel it. This is for true.

While the pregnancy period, most of pregnant woman like to stick the cutes baby’s picture on their wall. They though that, every times they saw this picture, their baby will looks similar or cute the same. Can I say this is lying? How can the baby look like other beside his/her parent? This is embarrasses thinking. But sometimes they still do it.